World’s Worst Christian.
That’s the title I get. It was unanimously agreed upon by a panel of two judges.
Awarded for the following demerits:
1. Having received a plethora of opportunities to exert faith, the currency of heaven, and having capitalized on few of them.
2. Relying on one’s own strength to thrive, even though personal survival is not possible without His saying so.
3. Received full access to His Word, but very little tucked away in one’s own cerebrum.
4. Given unending, unconditional grace, and yet one is slow to repent.
5. Is so convinced of one’s own inability to change, grow, or hear from Him that one’s lack of faith breathes life into the lies.
The judging panel, consisting of myself and he who fell, found the title to be most deserved.
Yet, in spite of the verdict, a third vote was cast, a vote that broke the weight of the judges’ decision completely.
“if we are faithless, he remains faithful— for he cannot deny himself.” 2 Timothy 2:13
Somehow, deserving the title as the World’s Worst Christian made no difference at all in the final say.
It would seem that living up to the title only increases His rebuke of such a claim, as though there was never any proof to begin with.
I think I forgot that I cannot keep Him from loving me. I do not have the final say, and no matter what I do, I never will.
I may be the World’s Worst Christian, but He does not regard me as such. Rather, I am a portion of Himself, made righteous by His shed blood and not my own actions. Through the ultimate love vindication, my demerits are forgiven and my slate is wiped clean.
Too Good To Be True? Yes, it is. And it is.
“God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?” Numbers 23:19
“Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.” Deuteronomy 7:9